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Apr 10Liked by Meg Oolders

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Is there a reason behind all the italics? If so, I missed it. If not, it’s distracting! [raised fist shaking] I did, however, very much enjoy the sentence “His eyes were tricksters.” Though, let me caution you against using the verb “feed” so close to the noun, “ass.” Pathos to bathos, they call it; pathway to bathroom humor, I say. [end comments on part one]

Condolences. 😢

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Apr 10Liked by Meg Oolders

I was trying to figure out a pattern to the alternating italics words, too.

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Hopefully both you and Wil will see this reply RE: italics. They're meant to be disorienting. Perhaps even "distracting." Because that's the experience the protagonist is having. I toyed with having them positioned even more erratically, but frankly it was too much of an ass pain for me to format it that way. 😂 Just an experiment. Seems a couple of people liked the effect.

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Apr 10Liked by Meg Oolders

If distracting / disorienting was your intention, job accomplished! It worked a treat!

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Okay fine, every story is an experiment. Just note that, imo, language like “map is a minefield” or “Scattered with doubt and sinkholes” is more effective at disorienting than italics

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Aaaaand…. if you really want disorienting, you could always put a talking bunny sitting shotgun

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I quite liked the italics alternating with regular font. It created a kind of rhythmic pattern in my mind as I was reading...

but then, I'm into those kinds of experiments too... although perhaps not bold enough to publish them.

Thanks for being brave!

Wonderful writing!! 💕🙏

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Thank you, Veronika! Here's to being bold - the both of us! 🥂🥂

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That's a stretch on the feed-ass gap, Wil. They're not next to each other or even in neighboring phrases. But thanks for the tip for future rectum. I mean reference.

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Just trying to make u 🙄

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😉

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Fuckkk….. Meg, I’m in pieces. I’m so sorry about what happened. I don’t even know what to say, so I’ll settle for nothing. The story/poem was great, too, by the way!

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Thanks, Andrei. We miss Winston a lot. It's been a year, but the truth is, dogs have a way of weaving themselves into so much of your everyday, that the empty spaces they leave behind feel very empty for a long time. Still feels strange to come home and not be enthusiastically greeted, for instance. Or to wake up and not have my feet licked incessantly. He also used to lay down on the kids' jackets before they left for school. We'd have to move him so they could put their jackets on. Little stuff like that I miss.

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Yeah, I get that. It’s the everyday stuff that impacts you. I can’t even bear to think what would happen if anything happened to my Vineri…

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I liked the italics in the story. Something about them added some emphasis and it really amplified the feeling of his nerves playing tricks on the character! Oh geez, I should've listened to the disclaimer because Forgetting April was a tearjerker 🥺 I hope you're doing better now.

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I'm glad the italics worked for you! That's exactly what I was trying to do with them. So yay! Re: April and the pup, yes, we are doing better. But it's surprising how often the grief sneaks back in, even after a year. He was such a good dog. I really miss his face.

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Sending you so much love and light right now. Here's to hoping you'll be able to find a little more closure! ♡

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💜

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Apr 10Liked by Meg Oolders

"...oversaturated with fuel for his fantasies." Yes, good!

"So, if I cancel April this year, it’s because it’s already too full. Too full of memories." It sure is. Why oh why do we always hang on to that IF-ONLY-I-HAD business? We do it to ourselves all the time and it is such a useless exercise. Changes nothing and increases our anguish. I am so sorry about your little doggie. You will remember him forever and maybe, eventually, let go of the guilt.

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Thank you, Sharron. 💜

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Apr 10Liked by Meg Oolders

My condolences, I’m sure that loss casts a long shadow. I hope May’s more giving, and you find the weight lighter.

Great mood piece as well, by the way. And a reminder that I should relearn to drive sometime this decade.

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There was big love in that tiny dog. May will be sunnier, warmer, and more colorful. That always helps.

I'd like to unlearn how to drive and move to a place where it isn't required. Most of my recurring nightmares involve driving on mirror dimension-esque roads and bridges without guardrails. Makes sense.

Thanks for reading, Dennard. Always a treat for me when you show up in here. 🥂

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Beautiful pieces. Amazing how the subconscious plays out a feeling from the past. I’m so sorry about this tough April. 🙏

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Thank you, friend. 💜

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Awww. My condolences, Meg. I’m sorry it’s been a rough month. Here’s to a much brighter May. 💐 ☀️ Loved these pieces, by the way.

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Thanks, Justin. I have high hopes for May. Come what may.

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This is me sending love to you.

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Received. 💜🙏🏼

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